It's May??

When did that happen?? Right now, I'm listening to the birds chirp outside the kitchen window just in awe that today is the first day of May...where has the time gone? And this month is going to be just as crazy and zoom by just as quick as all the others. In the next two weeks, I've got a history paper due, 2 final exams, 2 major projects for work due, my job changes at work (I'll explain that in a bit), Katie has a dance recital, Jay and I are in a wedding, I'm going to be participating in the Wichita River Run, Mother's day (which I CAN NOT forget to send out cards - someone remind me PLEASE!) and by the end of this month, I'll have turned 39 and Patrick will have finished Kindergarten and is also celebrating a birthday - I cannot believe my little boy will be turning 6! I'm trying to keep it all together, truly, I am, but, I seem to be forgetting the little things. I remember this happened a while back when I was stationed at the Pentagon, so many things going on in my life, that the small little things that should fit into my brain, just fall out. I'm trying to keep things prioritized, but, until this month ends, I'll just have to keep writing on my hand or stick post-it notes to my head! Something!
In 2 weeks, I'll become the Staff Trainer for the Child Care Center I work for, it's a position that will allow me to work more closely with all the children in the center, as well as give me an opportunity to introduce new hires to the mission of Open Arms. I'm excited about this change, but in the last few days, as I realize what this truly means, I'm beginning to understand that I'm leaving the security and the comfort of a classroom. For the last year, I have been the Kindergarten Lead Teacher, and have taken on that role personally. It's changed my life and allowed me to see new opportunities for myself. I've given myself to the room and to the children, and walking away from that classroom is bitter sweet. The kids... it's about the kids truly. Their open love for me and me for them, all that I've tried to give them, all that I've tried to teach them, has been from my heart. I'm not sure if I want to give that up, now that I've had a taste of it this past week. I like routine, I like structure, I like my own comfort zone. This new endeavor, well, there's not much routine about it, no structure from what I can determine, and I don't know how comfortable I am in the ever changing environment of Open Arms. Maybe I don't want to give up my classroom. I just don't know at this point. And I don't know if I'll be able to go back, if I'm not happy with it. Can I make as much of a difference in this new position, as I did in the classroom? What will I be able to give the kids in this role? I'm praying for God's will to be done in my life, and I'm praying that I walk down the path HE chooses me to. Will you also pray for me?